Don’t Break My Heart – Episode 13

“Would you help me if I left behind?” he asked. Regaining my composure, I forced to drift my eyes away from his charming face to my backpack that was lying in my lap. Avoiding his stare, I said, “I’d be glad to help you…please let me know when you need me.”

He straightened his back and leant against the wall. “Would you mind giving me your contact details – your phone number or address or something so that I can get in touch with you?”

“No…not at all…” I said. My hand slid down the side pocket of my backpack and within seconds I was able to fish out a small notepad and a pen. I wrote down my cell number and my address onto a piece of paper and handed it to him.

“It seems you are a well organized person.” He smiled.

“Yes I am…” A feeling of self pride washed over me when he complimented me on my organization skills that was one of the couple of talents that I possessed and proud of.

Feeling happy that he noticed something that I was really good at, I gave him the piece of paper. He took it from my hand and looked at it…

“Oh…that’s a nice place to live…Few of my friends stay there…How are you finding it there?”

“It’s fine. My roommates are good; however, I have talked to them very less as they are not around most of the time and are always kind of going here and there. How about you? Where do you put up?” I asked.

“Me.” His eyebrows intertwined. “Well…Ruchi…I can’t tell you…”

“Why…I am not going to stalk you…” I laughed on my joke.

His face turned stiff and his smile faded away. “I don’t have a permanent place to live. I’ll be putting up with some friends till the end of the weekend. I don’t know where I would be next week.”

“Oh…that’s not cool at all.”

His smile again twinkled in his eyes. “That’s not a big issue…in fact it helps me break the monotony of life.” He stood up. “I think we can go in now.”

I followed him into the classroom wandering how he would shift between places but when he sat next to me in one of the middle rows I forgot all about his residential issues and concentrated on how to come up with something clever that could catch his attention towards me. But, before I could say something I heard a female voice calling his name.

My eyes roamed in the direction of the voice. And, the owner of the voice was the same girl who I saw the very first day hugging Rajeev in the college corridor, few moments after my “falling into his arms” incident.

I tried not to be a mute spectator of their flirtatious interplay and forced my eyes away to look at my opened notebook. I was in no way able to compete with that girl or girls like her. She seemed perfectly skilled in flirting and Rajeev looked completely drawn into her, ignoring me to an extent that I felt as if I’d never known him.

She sat by him and they both mumbled and giggled with each other as and when the lecturer turned her back to the class to write on the green board.

The class came to its end and when I looked at my notebook I realized that I couldn’t write more than 10 words and what I wrote absolutely made no sense.

The teacher dismissed the class and I busied myself gathering my things hoping that the fashionable female and Rajeev would leave before me.

True enough. Rajeev stood to leave with her.

“Hope to see you soon Ruchi…,” he said.

“Oh…so he remembered that I am here….Thanks but no thanks….” I spoke to myself. I could manage to lift my stare to look at him. He was smiling and when our eyes entangled, he winked at me.

I couldn’t make out what he wanted to communicate by winking at me, but I forced a smile to hide the jealousy that jabbed me within. “Sure…” I couldn’t let any more words escape from my mouth.

Stuffing everything into my backpack and carrying it over my shoulder, I counted to 10 hoping that Rajeev and his girlfriend might have left the corridor. Stepping into the hallway, I glanced in both the directions. They’d long gone.

I finished all the classes and left for home, frustrated upon myself that because of him I was not able to concentrate on my studies. I was infatuated by a man with whom I’d no hopes of dating, who seemed like a Casanova, a flirt, but still I longed for him and couldn’t resist my temptation of fantasizing about him. The more I was trying to stay away from his memories the more I was getting trapped into the mesh of his lethal charms.

I decided that I would push his thoughts out of my mind and concentrate on my studies. My goal was clear. I had to utilize the money Dad left for me getting myself educated. I had to stand on my own feet, and for that I need to get good grades to have better placement options soon before I finish my management course.

I was in first semester and it’s a long road till the last semester. Distraction from studies was like self immolating me, and I vowed that I would get him out of my mind and erase all of his memories from my heart.

The next evening, I was relaxing on my armchair reading the novel just when I heard a knocking on the door and when I opened it; I was shocked to see Rajeev standing at the doorway.

“I was thinking if you can help me finishing up my pending assignments,” he said with a friendly grin.

I felt like telling him to seek help of his seductive girlfriend but his smile as always left me helpless.

“Sure.” I said and opened the door wider to let him in. As he bent down to lift up his heavy backpack, his arms flexed, and I again couldn’t control my intense urge to notice his bulging biceps beneath the rolled up sleeves of his white casual shirt.

Going Alone – Unchained Unrestrained

I quit my job in the year 2010, seven months after the birth of my son. I still remember it was the month of September, and I had to join office after my 6 months extended maternity leave. Being in the medical transcription industry, I had the luxury of working from the comfort of my home where I didn’t have to travel long distances nor I had to leave my baby alone either in a crèche or on a babysitter, but even then I couldn’t continue after spending 6 months long leave or more aptly said a 6- month long freedom from the daily grind of meeting my daily projections, finishing the stat jobs on time, and focusing on low TAT jobs.

I never regretted quitting my job as I had the financial support of my husband. I worked for 5 years in the MT industry just to utilize my time but during those years of working in the office environment, I got to know how someone becomes a grownup larva, cocooned inside a shell, never willing to come out.

Though I worked from home but it was no different from being cooped up in a glass walled office floor feeling the chills of continuously blowing cold air of the AC vent directly hitting on my spine. I just couldn’t continue and relied solely on the money that my husband earned from his day job at a multinational.

He changed jobs. We relocated to other cities and finally settled down in Bangalore. Now we both work from our home office. We are making new strides everyday and have have our hands in at-least 10 micro businesses…Writing and Publishing is just one of them.  We love our freedom – freedom of spending time with each other, playing with our son, cooking dinners and watching our favorite shows and movies whenever we feel like, no more postponing the pleasures of life for the weekends.

How many of you fancy the idea of working for yourself. I am sure you must’ve thought about it at some point. If yes, now it’s the time. Life is too short to ponder over taking challenges. If you have a hidden passion or an untold dream, live it up, don’t think twice just push the button and see what happens. Take a step back from your present life and see how it feels. Reboot your life. Drift out of your comfort zone and do what makes you scared that you would never do just because you don’t want to look freak or mad in front of others.

If you feel connected to this article and ponder over the subject hot to reboot your life, my next novel Camouflage is all about establishing a connection with the existence. Not in entirety, but a tiny bit of the book is based on my real life experiences, my feelings, and my naked emotions on paper.

I am done with the first edit of the book, but it has to go through my beta readers. I am hoping to launch it in the somewhere in the mid of year 2016 or may be earlier if everything goes the right way.

Till then, keep reading my blog posts, and help me reach the other readers.

At the end, if I ask a favor, I hope you won’t mind. If you like this post, please leave a reply in the comment section below to help me improvise and to let me know what would you like to read next.

What is Amazon’s Kindle Reading App?

Are you a book lover? Do you regularly pay visits to check what’s new on the bookshelves?

If yes…don’t you think going to the bookstores and navigating through various books and then finally selecting a book that you would spend your money on is a tedious task? Well…I don’t try to make a point that physical books are out of trend, as I am sure that a true book lover would never mind carrying those huge piles of heavy books on his head.

What I want to say is that, now you don’t have to carry heavy books with you. As books have gone digital, you can travel with hundreds of e-books downloaded in your hand-held device or laptop.

Reader or writer no matter who you are, if you want to try some of the bestselling books by world’s renowned international writers, there is nothing better than reading their e-books that are easily available on the internet. All you need it to just navigate through the vast range of multiple free and paid e-books available on several online book retailer websites, for instance, Kobo, Barnes and Nobles, Smashwords, Amazon, and so on, click your favorite book and download it either on your desktop, laptop, or any of your handheld device including your smart phone, iphone, or ipad and read wherever, whenever, and whatever you want.

Being an avid reader, it’s my personal experience that Amazon is the best online retailer offering a huge range of fiction and nonfiction e-books. You can find hundreds of free or paid cookbooks, self-help, motivational, or mythological e-books on Amazon. If you play with fiction, you can surf through romance, thriller, horror, erotica and various other genres of fiction writing.

The best thing about online book retailers and distributors is that they offer you a wide variety of free e-books that run on promotional discounts to download freely without paying even a single penny, the advantage that you won’t get in case of physical books. And, for that, you don’t have to visit the book store, just be online.

Now coming to Amazon, there is something cool that I think many of us didn’t know up until the self publishing revolution and that is Amazon’s free Kindle reading app. The Kindle app is available for most major smartphones, tablets and computers. That means with your free Kindle reading apps, you can buy a Kindle book once, and read it on any device with the Kindle app installed. You can also read that same Kindle book on a Kindle device if you own one.

A Peace Which Crowned Her Life

“She had looked for his coming as warriors come,
With the clash of arms and the bugle’s call;
But he came instead with a stealthy tread,
Which she did not hear at all.

She had thought how his armor would blaze in the sun,
As he rode like a prince to claim his bride:
In the sweet dim light of the falling night
She found him at her side.

She had dreamed how the gaze of his strange, bold eye
Would wake her heart to a sudden glow:
She found in his face the familiar grace
Of a friend she used to know.

She had dreamed how his coming would stir her soul,
As the ocean is stirred by the wild storm’s strife:
He brought her the balm of a heavenly calm,
And a peace which crowned her life.” – Ella Wheeler Wilcox

Love has been the most favorite topic of poets and artists for centuries. A lot has been written and depicted about love in the form of romantic poems, novels, and various art forms from paintings to sculptures and from buildings to monuments.

Even today, when technology has changed the world and spread its feet in all spheres of life, love is intangible and innocent. Love is a feeling, an action, a connection that is free of social and cultural boundaries.

People love to read about love and romance. This reason is just enough to explain the popularity and demand of some of the great classic love stories from Wuthering heights to Casablanca.

Though a lot has been written about love time to time, I personally feel that there is very less reading available for those who want to explore the intricacies of modern-age romance.

Modern-age love stories set in the background of different cities, internationally, are rare to find. Book “Still the Love Blooms” allows the readers to slowly unfold the petals of blooming love in different parts of the world, from the most developed and enriched nations to the most poor and war-stricken developing countries of the world.

Chennai Floods 2015 – The Resilience

I still remember the crazy summer afternoons of Chennai when I used to gaze the city standing in the front balcony of my 3rd floor apartment flat located in the posh residential commune of Pallikarnai. Scorching fire spewing sun, parched and deserted streets, sun-bathed low and high rises of the hot and humid city of Chennai would often make me regret on my decision of moving along with my husband from Bangalore to Chennai when he switched his job in the year 2012.

But, now I am really thankful to God for what I have experienced and learned during my stay in the southern metro of India. It was during my 2 years of stay in the city when I got to know the undying spirit of Chennai which is unique in its own way.

The southernmost part of India where all the 4 seasons of the year are dominated by hot and humid summers, a city that has witnessed the tumultuous Tsunami in the year 2004 and where floods and cyclones have swathed the dwellings multiple times in the past, Chennai has always displayed its innate ability of resilience.

I didn’t feel surprise when on T.V. I saw an old woman floating over the waters to reach a safer patch of earth in the submerged city. I could notice that brief smile on her frazzled face overshadowing the effects of severe devastation caused by recent floods. It didn’t appear that the severity of rains and inundation in any way has knocked down the old lady’s capability of bouncing back. It’s just not the case of that old woman, one can notice several men, women, and children bravely coping up with the adversities caused by the rains that lashed the town to almost ruins a few days before.

It is this undying spirit of the citizens that keeps the city going. Though floods have shattered the lives of many of this ever smiling peculiarly distinct port city, it’s hard to find a single person belonging to the city complaining about anything. And, it’s the vibrancy, liveliness, and courage of the citizens that help the city shine again. Chennaites have proudly overcome the shadows of despair and hopelessness and are courageously fighting back. Chennai is live again. Salute to all Chennaites!